With all of the changes in the laws, I can’t help but to feel like a high paid security guard with a gun. Never any career did I ever have to tell citizens, there is not much I can do to help them with crime or quality of life wise. The past few years have been so frustrating.
In my state, it is literally going to get worse before it gets better. I came on this job to save lives, not to coddle criminals. I came to be a part of the justice system, that helps protect the marginalized and voiceless. I did not come on this job to roll out the red carpet for the criminal element to harm people without fear of consequences, based on a false narrative.
It sucks, because I really love my job, but when I’m unable to create a safe environment for the people I serve, It can wear on me. How the hell do you fight crime when the very system that tells you to go fight it, is now fighting you?
I literally dread going to work sometimes. If it wasn’t for the love I receive from my community, I’d probably ve gone. I stay for them because many see hope in me. Say a little prayer for me y’all. I need my head lifted.